Sunday, October 28, 2007

Today is not a good day, I am an emotional wreck! It was my cousins baby shower- and I love them dearly- I was very happy to be there, I made the baby a blanket and I was lucky enough to get in some cuddle time while I fed her. Then it came time for the gifts to be opened, my job was to write what was given on the inside of the cards- the gifts were all so cute- and I found myself almost tearing up- I was wishing I had a little bundle of joy and that my house was full of all of these things. I also had to answer so many questions about when DH and I were planning on having kids- all of my cousins that are my age are married and have at least 1 baby... some are even on #2... I am the only one with none :(

I also started my metformin today- and my tummy is feeling kinda upset... I took it right after supper- just one today! I will build up to 3 a day over the next 2-3 weeks. The benefits sound really good... but I am a little nervous about the side effects!

I haven't O'd yet, but the line is getting darker on the OPK's... not quiet as dark or darker than the reference line, but it is getting there! DH and I are trying to BD almost every day... I don't want to miss any chances!!

I am really not looking forward to the upcoming week- its going to be so busy- some things in a good way, some things not so much! I am heading to my aunts house tomorrow to carve pumpkins with my little cousin and god-daughter- I am really looking forward to that- they always put me in a good mood... and my aunt is wonderful- I can talk to her about anything and everything!

I hope everyone has a great Monday- and I will update again soon!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

I just got back to work from my follow up appointment with my doctor. She said I am reacting well to the Clomid, which I already knew. And she thinks I am just ovulating a little late this month- which it totally normal she said! She seemed impressed that I know so much about PCOS and my own condition- she liked how much I was trying to take control of the situation and how detailed my charts are!

We talked about the Clomid and the side effects, as well as how I am feeling in general. I told her I am really tired, getting wicked hot flashes and constantly feel bloated and fat. I eat good, exercise, and am still gaining weight- I am also breaking out- so I pretty much just feel gross and feel like there is nothing I can do about it!! She decided to try me on Metformin- see how I react to it and if it makes any difference. She told me I might feel sick for the first while I am on it, but to gradually increase my dose to 3 times a day. She is also sending me for a 2 hr glucose test tomorrow. I have to be at the lab by 8am and I have to fast for 8-10 hours before! I am not diabetic and I thought that only diabetics were perscribed metformin... I am going to do a little bit of research on this- if anyone reading has any knowledge about this I would love it if you would share!!

I will update after my glucose test tomorrow and my first metformin pill- which I can only take after I get the test done!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Still no O

I am waiting, not so paitently to ovulate... Why haven't I?? Last month on the same dose I ovulated on day 14... I am now on day 17 and still nothing- not even a positive OPK.

So we recieved the invitation to my DH's 16 year old cousins babies baptism... they are inviting the entire family- I bet about 80 people- and they rented a hall... I can't believe it! I don't think DH and I would even have a party that big!

Today was a pretty crappy day... I got a speeding ticket on my way home from work and my cookies didn't turn out- both of those things added to a really long day and to top it all off I am getting a cold!

Tomorrow I have a regular follow up with my OBGYN... she just wants to know how things are going and to review all of my charts!

I will update again soon!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Sorry its been so long since my last post! Last week was very busy at work and I wasn't feeling the best! I took 100mg of Clomid on cycle days 3-7 and it hit me a little harder than normal this cycle. I got a few really bad headaches and some horrible bloating!

My weekend was better than the rest of the week! I went Oktoberfesting again on Saturday night with friends, but I let DH drink, I was the DD. I actually had more fun sober, haha! Sunday I spent the day shopping with my mom- it was so nice! She bought me a few outfits- it was so sweet of her!

This week so far has been going ok! I am just waiting to get a positive OPK so DH and I can get busy!

I hope everyone is having a great week! I will post again when I O!

Monday, October 8, 2007

After a fun weekend of Oktoberfesting and family time I am now curled up in my bed with cramps :( I guess I am ready to start cycle 2 with Clomid. Since my progesterone level was so high we know the clomid did what it was supposed to, so we just have to do a little more BD'ing this month and hopefully it will happen!!

After getting my BFN on Friday I went Oktoberfesting with my friends and had a fantastic time! We went to the best German club in the Kitchener-Waterloo area to the largest Oktoberfest celebration around- it was great! Tons of beer, schnitzel, pretzels and polka! Great fun was had by all- until the ride home, lol. It was really nice to get out and just forget about things! We are heading out again next Saturday for more festing!

Saturday was kind of a blah day- I was pretty sick in the morning, but then we went to DH's parents house for our Thanksgiving dinner- steaks, lol. It was nice. When we got home I got a sad message on my facebook. Friends of ours who were set to get married in January have called off their wedding- they didn't day why- he was just messaging me to let me know his now ex fiance wouldn't be able to help me with the baby shower we are supposed to be co-hosting in a few weeks... the invites went out the day before- and they say co-hosted by the 2 of us! Now I am throwing it alone- oh well... I just hope the 2 of them either work things out, or are happier this way!

Sunday DH and I went to my aunt and uncles to celebrate Thanksgiving with my mom's side of the family- we are really close to everyone in this family and see them all at least a few times a month and talk all the time! We are very lucky to have a family this close! But the day did have some not so great points- I lost track of how many times the baby question came up- and they all know we are having trouble- but that doesn't stop anyone- sometimes it takes all I have not to break down and cry.

Tonight we are headed to my Dad's parents house, "the farm", for our big Thanksgiving dinner- I can't wait- the dinner is always to die for! Also, my cousin who I am the closest in age to just had a baby- well his wife did- and she is adorable- I can't wait to hold her again!

Well I am going to take a nap and hope these cramps go away a little bit before we head to my Grandparents!

Happy Thanksgiving to all the Canadians!

Friday, October 5, 2007


My doctor just called, she sounded so sorry... she said the beta was negative.

DH and I are leaving now to go visit our friends and their newborn, and on the way I need to mail out invitations to a baby shower I am throwing... this is going to be a tough day. Tears are already rolling down my cheeks.

We are going Oktoberfesting tonight- and I can see A LOT of beer being consumed!

Happy Thanksgiving weekend to all the Canadians reading.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

So this week has been quite the roller coaster! After how miserable I was on Sunday and how much by bb's hurt I was feeling pretty positive... I did an HPT on Tuesday morning and got a BFN, I was in such a bad mood all day and felt like crap!

Anyways- I had gone for a progesterone test on Monday morning and my doctors office just called with the results, at 10 DPO my level was 77.9. My doctor said this was fantastic and she is sending me for a beta tomorrow morning!

This is such a rollercoaster! I will update when I get the results!